FORMER Fulham star Kay Voser has lifted the lid on his battles with cocaine addiction and schizophrenia.
The Swiss defender joined the Cottagers in 2014 after winning three league titles with FC Basel.
Kay Voser battled with depression and schizophrenia during his spell at FulhamGetty
However he made just ten league appearances in 18 months before being released.
Voser, who won 15 youth-level caps for Switzerland, went on to play for Sion, FC Zurich and US side Charlotte Independence.
The 36-year-old has now revealed how his time in London turned into a “horror trip.”
He said: “For too long I’ve had to conceal things that are part of me – my fears and psychoses. My life is just a drama.
“My upbringing was very tough. My father was an alcoholic, my mother a manic depressive – and I am schizophrenic.
“In my parallel universe, which I always dived into, I had a friend who looked just like me.
“While at Basel I often had difficult spells, and I drank too much at times.
“But Fulham turned into a horror trip for me. It began even before I joined them.
“On holiday in Ibiza with other Basel players, I lost my grip on reality. We were on a yacht.
“I cheated on my then girlfriend, she dumped me on the spot and I plunged into severe depression.
“I could not establish myself on the pitch at Fulham, and I made a big mistake in joining them.
“My state of mind became alarming. I let myself be talked into taking cocaine, and this came to light.
“The amounts that were revealed in tests were so small that it could not be proved for certain that I had actually taken cocaine.
“I had to fight the case, but my legal bills came to almost £100,000.”
Voser told Swiss paper Blick that he lied to Fulham chiefs, pretending to be injured while spending time with his mum.
The former left-back said: “When my mother came to visit me in London for a few weeks I took time out for her.
“I told Fulham I was injured – a lie. There was resentment from the club towards me.
“But my mother was more important to me than football.
“Soon afterwards she died from cancer – and a part of me died with her.”